Alcohol is coloring my brain in warm light right now. I feel buzzed, loose and relaxed. No anxiety. It's nice. I had a good time tonight with my friend Dollface tonight. We did our Thursday night girl's night out. I love hanging out with her so much. Weird but I knew she & I had the potential for a great friendship the very first time I laid eyes on her. It's so good to have someone to talk to.
I feel so out of place when I go out nowadays. I need to find the right place to hang out. I never feel 'at home' anywhere. Everyone is either way younger, or way older, than I am, everywhere I go. The music is not relatable to me. I feel lost and yeah- too old (or too young, depending on the place) I need a hangout. I need a niche.
And now I need my bed. The room is spinning oh my. And I only had 4 drinks!
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I have had some similar experience with feeling older/ younger than the group. Rather than being out of place, I try to see the humor in it and amuse myself with the shenanigans of the crowd.
I’m in the same boat and feel like you do. I have been to EVERY bar here and not liked one yet. It’s basically this city. Its lame crap on a city you left and then came back to but it’s true. If I have to sit in a bar and listen to either Metallica, korn, or 50cent one more time I’ll have an aneurysm. Chicago was awesome in that it had bars for people my age (30s).
So I just don’t got out anymore. It’s lame but probably good for my severely damaged liver anyhow. Sad enough, I know I’m not missing out as I’ve done everything there is to do here many times over. Instead I save up money and travel out of town when I can. Oh, and I work waaayy to much. Good thing I’m antisocial. ANT-TI-SO-CIAL! ANT-TI-SO-CIAL! Haha what ever happened to Anthrax?
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