Saturday, June 7, 2008

you can't lose what's already lost

So. Lost Destinations. It has been forever since I updated it, I know. It makes me sad, because I never intended for it to go un-updated at all, let alone for so long. Bah.

It's always something that I have done for love not money, and something that I have always had a ton of passion for. LD is super-importanto to me. LD has tons of fans & friends all over the globe. LD is FILLED with pics & stories of the lost, abandoned, haunted, forgotten, weird, urban legendary. LD is my baby. Lots of memories, discoveries, and crazy journeys within those pages.

Sometimes, though- truthfully- in the past year+ it has hurt me to look at that site because of some of the memories... like seeing all the photos of places I explored with my sister, and some other extremely special people who are either no longer here or are no longer in my life... looking at those photos brings back a lot of feelings- good & bad. That, combined with the mental focus, hours of work, and financial support that is required to keep a site like LD going just became a little too overwhelming for me to maintain with all the other stuff that's happened recently (my sister's murder, a whole string of unexpected deaths, health problems, hospital stays & depression... oi)

I kinda crumbled.

It has sometimes been hard enough just getting through that stuff, let alone anything else. So LD, like a lot of my hobbies and passions, sort of fell to the wayside as I held on to myself for dear life just trying to just keep it together. But I need to get back to it. It could only be good for me to delve back into my passions (or, obsessions, as the case may be!) And I haven't been ready to, but.... I think I'm there now. And I have started working on some stuff for LD recently- new photos and stories, some redesign, some improvements, and I'm hoping to have it all up and running again really soon.

Lots of you guys have been asking me if I'll ever return to updating, and for awhile I wasn't sure myself. Not that I didn't want to, I just didn't know if I could handle it (& that went for pretty much everything for awhile) But, I know now, I can... I just needed a little time off to deal with shit. And now, the creative juices are creeping back up on me and LD is calling my name ("Bitch, get back over here!")

I'm looking forward to getting the new stuff added.
And then to getting back into exploration mode, to see what dark & spooky places I can get myself into for your urb ex enjoyment! So stay tuned. I'm about to get lost again.


Misty said...

We're all looking forward to the updates. Take care of yourself. You have A LOT of people on your side, including people like me that you've never even met. If you ever need any help with anything or if you find yourself in Central California, look me up. Good luck with everything!!

Anonymous said...

Hey Shades, good to know passion is taking you by the hand again to drive you. It'll be rewarding, it'll do you the world of good.

Anonymous said...

I am behind you 100%. Regardless of however long it may be before there's updates, I'm a forever fan of your work. The day when there's new stuff up on your page will definitely be a happy day! Keep strong and I'll be awaiting new things from LD!

Anonymous said...

Most excellent. It's exciting to hear that you are feeling up to it again. I can't wait to be vicariously lost again. ;D

Chris Brown said...

Hey, there! This is news that I've been waiting to hear for over a year now. I can't wait to stay up to 6 AM reading the site again.

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Anonymous said...

I just found LD on the internet googling some abandoned Jersey sites. Great site. I just wanted to pass on my condolences for your sister and I wish you and your family the best. From the looks of it here..there's a lot of us out here in cyberspace wishing you the best. Good luck and I hope we see some updates soon! Your passion for this comes through in your pictures and words. It's a joy to read.