I haven&#39;t split up with my guy. Tho with the w...

I haven't split up with my guy. Tho with the way things always go in my life, I don't ever feel secure or that anything is gonna last- the hard-earned pessimist in me- so I always fear that a good thing will eventually end for me.

My family has abandoned me completely. And the friends that come in & out of my life never stay. It's like they come, get what they need from me, and then they just leave me by the wayside without a second glance.

It's fucking hard. I hate being alone but I guess it's my lot in life.

I don't post that much here anymore because I feel like I'd end up posting too much angst and everyone would get sick of hearing it.

Thanks for your comment... always good to know that somebody is listening....